I was so fkin furious when I wrote "Shoot". I've been alive long enough to learn not to be shocked when people act like total d*ckheads but I know I’ve still not learnt that lesson. This class A specimen was driving me up the wall, but I felt like I was watching the situation from outside of myself..that sounds weird, so let me explain:
Despite the fact this persons nasty behaviour was aimed directly at me, I wasn’t taking it personally or letting it affect my self-esteem (I’m just not built that way). What was upsetting me, was that this person was being downright cruel and if they were going to treat me like this they would definitely treat others this way. It felt like this old friends actions could one day irreparably hurt someone and what if they give up on what they love because of this sour prick? That wasn’t ok with me, I remember I was literally shaking with rage.
This person was a music industry veteran and I was a newbie, I was no threat to them. We’d been friends but when I started to have moments of success, that’s when their vile behaviour started heading in my direction. My frustration was compounded by the fact that all the negativity they were spewing was self-destructive. Having once been friends it was immensely upsetting to watch how they could poison themselves out of pure jealousy, when we could and should have been celebrating each other together.
So during all of this I found myself so angry I was talking out loud. I’d be spitting lines and then repeating it by writing the stream of consciousness in a text message to my manager. We’re a tight-knit team and he was going through it as much as I was ‘cause if someone hurts me they hurt him and the same vice-versa. I recorded what I’d written in a voice memo and the next thing I knew I was sat at the piano sculpting it all into a song. I looked out the voice memos so you can hear them:
It all happened like lightening, from the moment inspiration struck to those voice memos and texts, then I got Logic X up (Apple music production software) started structuring the chords with a beat and before I knew it I had a fully produced song. When it came to adding it to the album very little was added production-wise from the demo I’d made on the night of all the rage, the main thing it needed was a decent mix which Joe Kearns took care of :)
Check out the original demo:
The released album track: